so easy, but then so hard

[Bobby]

i'm 17, and i live in australia, and i'm finishing my last year of school. this is my thoughts about me as a stutter'er and what others might experience

i think that stutter'ers need to have a mindset were they think NO one cares about stuttering. i find that i have more worst feelings before i have to talk then while i'm talking. i'm doing 6 subjects in school, and after looking at them all, i have found the only one i really need to read aloud is history. every history class i feel almost sick, its horrible. when i'm called out to read a paragraph i do it, and after i find that i dont do so bad, maybe one block and no one cares.

the problem is i need to get a mindset that no one cares, because its true(at least in my case). the hard part is getting the mindset.

how do you guys thing i should go around getting into the thought that no one cares ? and i should not feel sick when theres a slight indication of me haveing to read aloud ?

[Asif]

Hehe: Nobody really cares about ANYthing these days. Why should they care about you?
The only difficulty is getting yourself to not care about how you might be seen or thought-of.
I have always been cursed with a ridiculous sense of my own self-importance. Clearly this is stupid. I am not important at all in the grand scheme of things. And yet there is nothing quite like me in the whole universe.
Paradox is everywhere. Meditation can bring many insights and - as a pleasant side effect - a deep calm.
Feeling sick before your history class is not that bad. If you were going to do your first parachute jump, you would feel the same way. I saw a memorable piece of graffiti on a London wall a while ago:
"Fear it: do it anyway."
I do not advocate fear, but the idea is good.
Life is full of unpleasant things. You just have to get on with it.
I wish you well :)
Asif.

[Sam]

When you are my age, people do care, they think you are some sort of freak of nature, but I have made a promise to myself, if the blatent teacher EVER gets me to read something out, im not going to do it, I'll walk home if it takes that.
Is it really worth getting that sick feeling inside of you for stuttering? avoid it, I have avoided speeches for the last year, and i've never looked back. I know what the feeling is when the teacher asks you to read it out to the class, alas, if they dont understand then that's their problem, not ours.

Maybe it will get better for me as I get older, as more and more people will understand at what problem we have.

[Sup2u]

Personally I barely stutter when reading. In fact I stutter less when reading. Anyway I know the feeling Bobby gets. When your thinking about talking (or any other task for that matter) you feel scared $h!+less but when you actually do it you feel fine. Don't feel so scared during history. If you can do it once you can do it 100 times!!

[Bobby]

its funny, cause so far in history i havent been told to read something yet.

although i had to in another subject and it court me off guard. and when i read it, it was perfect.

i think that after i get going its fine. although if i have to start with a word i'm not good with, then that first word isnt good.

[Sup2u]

Same with me with reading. That's not the problem. Reading i am usually perfect at. Its kinda weird. But I'm glad that i can read fine.

[Professor]

in 8th grade i always used to want to read in front of da class voulanteered a lot and did a good job and idnt really stutter at all. But now is a different case i dont voulantear and if i get picked on i stutter.