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08-31-2005, 06:57 PM
Hi everyone here at stutteringforum.com. I just joined and I’m looking forward to contributing to this forum as well as getting good advice from all the helpful people. I’m going to use this time to write about some parts of my life as it is right now.
General Info
Ok, well first off, my name is Vitaly (it’s Russian). I live in Maryland, United States and I just started college. I’m not exactly sure how and when I began stuttering, but I think it started somewhere around when I was 8 or 9 (I’m currently 18). Gradually it worsened as the years went on and probably reached an all time high when I was 15/16, it’s been getting a little better now. Right now I’d say my stuttering is between moderate and severe (depends on situation, setting, people).
Parents
My parents can sometimes be really great and awesome, but many times I do wish that I had different people as parents. I get into many fights with them. My mom often makes fun at my stuttering by often mocking me and laughing at me. My dad doesn’t make fun at me, but he often does ask why I can’t talk better and says that I’ll be a failure at life and won’t amount to anything. When my mom hears him say those things, she usually joins in and starts to talk on and on about that crap. The funny thing is that my mom basically hasn’t done anything with her life either. Anyways, it’s easy to see that my parents don’t really support or encourage me. It really hurts me when they say those things, but I’m trying to use it to my advantage now by trying to prove them wrong and laughing in their face when I do accomplish something that they say I couldn’t do.
Social Life, Friends, and Relationships/Girlfriends
I’d say I have no social life.
In terms of friends…well, it depends on how you define it. In terms of people I know and people that know me, I have plenty of those, but they’re just people I might say hi to and then a quick sentence or two. Those people I’d describe as just people I’m “friendly” with. Basically it’s just the people I see at school everyday. In terms of people that I hang out with daily and talk to on a daily basis….well, those I pretty much have none.
I’ve never had a girlfriend, been on a date, or went to any of my school dances such as homecoming or prom. I’ve gotten plenty of hugs, but that’s about it. It also doesn’t help that I have acne that sometimes gets better, and then all of a sudden gets really bad again. There have been a few girls who did like me but I would just try to avoid them. They were also a few years younger than me and as teenagers, a few years is a big difference. I guess you could say I’m not desperate right now, but it would be nice to have one. I’m just scared to approach new people (especially girls) and introduce myself and start a conversation. I’m scared they’ll laugh/make fun of me and then I’ll just feel really embarrassed. When I was young many people would make fun of me. Not many people do it to me now, but there still are those ignorant and disrespectful ones.
Ok well, that’s about it for now. If you took the time to read through this whole thing, then I really appreciate it.
General Info
Ok, well first off, my name is Vitaly (it’s Russian). I live in Maryland, United States and I just started college. I’m not exactly sure how and when I began stuttering, but I think it started somewhere around when I was 8 or 9 (I’m currently 18). Gradually it worsened as the years went on and probably reached an all time high when I was 15/16, it’s been getting a little better now. Right now I’d say my stuttering is between moderate and severe (depends on situation, setting, people).
Parents
My parents can sometimes be really great and awesome, but many times I do wish that I had different people as parents. I get into many fights with them. My mom often makes fun at my stuttering by often mocking me and laughing at me. My dad doesn’t make fun at me, but he often does ask why I can’t talk better and says that I’ll be a failure at life and won’t amount to anything. When my mom hears him say those things, she usually joins in and starts to talk on and on about that crap. The funny thing is that my mom basically hasn’t done anything with her life either. Anyways, it’s easy to see that my parents don’t really support or encourage me. It really hurts me when they say those things, but I’m trying to use it to my advantage now by trying to prove them wrong and laughing in their face when I do accomplish something that they say I couldn’t do.
Social Life, Friends, and Relationships/Girlfriends
I’d say I have no social life.
In terms of friends…well, it depends on how you define it. In terms of people I know and people that know me, I have plenty of those, but they’re just people I might say hi to and then a quick sentence or two. Those people I’d describe as just people I’m “friendly” with. Basically it’s just the people I see at school everyday. In terms of people that I hang out with daily and talk to on a daily basis….well, those I pretty much have none.
I’ve never had a girlfriend, been on a date, or went to any of my school dances such as homecoming or prom. I’ve gotten plenty of hugs, but that’s about it. It also doesn’t help that I have acne that sometimes gets better, and then all of a sudden gets really bad again. There have been a few girls who did like me but I would just try to avoid them. They were also a few years younger than me and as teenagers, a few years is a big difference. I guess you could say I’m not desperate right now, but it would be nice to have one. I’m just scared to approach new people (especially girls) and introduce myself and start a conversation. I’m scared they’ll laugh/make fun of me and then I’ll just feel really embarrassed. When I was young many people would make fun of me. Not many people do it to me now, but there still are those ignorant and disrespectful ones.
Ok well, that’s about it for now. If you took the time to read through this whole thing, then I really appreciate it.