Blueboy
06-09-2004, 08:32 AM
Hi!
I'm a 30-year old stutterer and has been stuttering ever since I was 8. As to the cause and what exactly set it in motion, I suppose I'll never know for sure. I was in pre-primary school where we had a speech therapist who told my parents I was pronouncing my "r" the wrong way, and she convinced them to let me have therapy to end the problem. The only problem was that I was a nervous wreck with her, and that every time I said a word the wrong way during therapy she used to get angry and slam her hand down on the desk, which scared me to death! I continued to experience the feeling of insecurity and being frightened more and more in the presence of, especially people in authority like teachers, etc. and started to stutter real bad. They even let my mom sit in the one time to see how bad I was and wanted to know whether everything was ok at home, that maybe something was wrong at home to cause me to stutter so much. Anyway... it was the beginning of a very long and frustrating school career with lots of ups and downs. After school I went to the army and then decided to try my hand at Public Relations, which I now know was a mistake (I wanna move into web design) but I did prove everyone wrong in the end and completed the course... no matter how tough it was at times... having to talk in front of a whole class audience, etc.! I'm now working as a translator at a newspaper and still stutters, but know that I can do anything I put my heart to! For years I've been searching for answers to the questions of why it should happen to me, but I know now it's God way of making sure that I keep close to Him, cause He picks me up everytime I think I can't do this or that... giving me the strength for each day. Even though I might never be able to speak fluently on earth, I just wanna inspire each and everyone on this site and say that God's plan for our lives is always perfect. God bless you all! :)
I'm a 30-year old stutterer and has been stuttering ever since I was 8. As to the cause and what exactly set it in motion, I suppose I'll never know for sure. I was in pre-primary school where we had a speech therapist who told my parents I was pronouncing my "r" the wrong way, and she convinced them to let me have therapy to end the problem. The only problem was that I was a nervous wreck with her, and that every time I said a word the wrong way during therapy she used to get angry and slam her hand down on the desk, which scared me to death! I continued to experience the feeling of insecurity and being frightened more and more in the presence of, especially people in authority like teachers, etc. and started to stutter real bad. They even let my mom sit in the one time to see how bad I was and wanted to know whether everything was ok at home, that maybe something was wrong at home to cause me to stutter so much. Anyway... it was the beginning of a very long and frustrating school career with lots of ups and downs. After school I went to the army and then decided to try my hand at Public Relations, which I now know was a mistake (I wanna move into web design) but I did prove everyone wrong in the end and completed the course... no matter how tough it was at times... having to talk in front of a whole class audience, etc.! I'm now working as a translator at a newspaper and still stutters, but know that I can do anything I put my heart to! For years I've been searching for answers to the questions of why it should happen to me, but I know now it's God way of making sure that I keep close to Him, cause He picks me up everytime I think I can't do this or that... giving me the strength for each day. Even though I might never be able to speak fluently on earth, I just wanna inspire each and everyone on this site and say that God's plan for our lives is always perfect. God bless you all! :)